If I could do it all over again... Part 6

And so our "English Card Game" began. I asked him to move over a bit while I proped myself on the bed with a few pillows and started dealing out the cards in two piles. Daniel just smirked at my crummy efforts at dealing out cards and then finally took the deck from my hands and finished dealing himself.

-If I let you deal the cards we'd still be waiting for you to finish by the time the class was supposed to be done.

-Ah cmon, you also don't need to exagerate, ok?!

-You have the best expressions ever teacher! I love the grimace you do when someone offends you.

-You didn't offend me. You will need to try a lot harder student. Major fail student, major fail!

The first cards were flipped, Daniel took my cards, paused a moment for thought and then asked his first question:

-What did you do today?

-I woke up real early, went to the company where I gave a class, then I came back home and had breakfast, cleaned my room, organized my classes and went to the Hotel. Did you know that "Black Eyed Peas" are staying there? Who knows, I might even get to see them if I hang around. Priscilla will be at the interview they will give to the press and she will also get to go to their show for free - unfrair!!! Umm yeah, after that I had to do a ton of stuff downtown that I had been postponing for the longest time and then after I got it all done I finally came here.

Back and forth questions were asked and answered until it got each time more intimate and topics got hotter and hotter:

-Student, how did you loose your virginity?

-I don't remember.

-That doesn't count as an answer.

-Okay, okay... ummm, let me remember. It was during Carnaval. I was 17 years old and I had drank a lot and was basically partying with friends and then there was this older girl...I think she was around twenty one or twenty two.

-Was she hot?

-She had a nice body but not a pretty face, you know what I mean?

-Ah, like a hot body but nothing other than that?

-Yeah exactly. Well yeah, that was it. I lost my virginity during Carnaval and yeah...

-17 is pretty old, eh?

-I know. I was pretty old. But that is because before I dated this girl for two years from 15 till I turned 17 and she was a goodie goddie girl so we didn't have sex - like, we did almost everything but no sex. And since I had never had sex before it wasn't that bad...as they say, if you've never had it you don't miss it. 

-Did she know you were a virgin? The girl that took your virginity away?

-I dont know. Maybe. It was pretty fucked up my first fuck.

-Hahahahaha... howcome?

-Like, I didn't know how to put the condom on and I put it inside out...made a huge mess. Got all embarassed. And I did a ton of stuff wrong. But she didn't say anything so that's the only reason I can't be sure if she knew or not - though its probably possible that she suspected I was one.

-Ohh....so sweet of her. Doing her yearly charity work.

-Now you've offended me teacher! It wasn't like that! If she didn't want it she wouldn't have gone after it, must less actually done it. 

-Hummm...sei nao... hehehe

-My turn to ask the question now since I put the highest card. You have to be totally honest, ok?

-Go ahead...I play by the rules, don't worry.

-Okay then...so tell me, what color is your panties?

-That same old question??? geezzzzzz

-You never answered it before, so I'm asking again.

-Well, if you want to know soo much then fine...I am wearing white panties. Satisfied?

-No. What color was it the first time I asked you?

-How am I supposed to remember? Most likely black...I don't know. I don't keep track of color of every single pair of panties I wear. 

-Okay, continuation of my last question since it was too short.

-Who makes the rules here? I don't remember explaining that to you...

-Ah cmon teacher - you are always the "Almighty One" having to set all the rules...I also want to add some minor rules here and there too, if not it's not fair!

-Fine! What is the "continuation" of your question?

-What kind of panties do you like wearing? 

-Hahahaha...here I am thinking you are going to ask me this huge important question and once again you ask me a "pantie relationed" question? Can I laugh?

-You already are laughing! Now you have to answer my question.

-So...I guess I like wearing g-strings and those boy short panties cause they are comfortable and hide all the defects...hihihi...and I usually prefer white, black and red panties. I don't go too far away from those three colors. And now, are you finally satisfied?

-Oh ok. Satisfied. But if I could see it then I would REALLY be satisfied.

-Now you are going wayyyyyyyyyy to far. Hahahaha... Now it's my turn to ask you a continuation to the continuation of your question.

-Humm??? I didn't get half of that. Continuation of a continuation to my what???

-Yeah, something like that.

-But you didn't even flip the card to see who is gonna ask the question!

-My new rule. I should have the right to also add rules too.

-That's unfair.

-Deal with it!!!

-TEACHER!!!

-STUDENT!!!

At this we both burst out in laughter.

-Sooo...the continuation of the continuation of my question. Here it goes: Did one of your girlfriends ever use a sexy uniform for you? Like you know, got dressed up as a flight attendant, a schoolgirl, maid, police woman kind of deal...

-No. Never.

-Really?

-I never really cared about that. I mean, if one of my girlfriends did wear a sexy uniform I wouldn't complain at all but I am not so crazy about it to the point of asking it of her. I am glad just seeing the girl naked.

-I am sure you are... but if you had to choose a sexy uniform for one of your girlfriends to wear, which one would it be?

-The nurse. For sure the nurse.

-Why are all guys sooo into the nurse? I don't get it!

-Ahh...I don't think there is an explanation for that, or maybe there is. I guess There is something about it that creates this anonymity. Like there you are at the hospital and this hot nurse comes over...

-Okay, okay...I get the picture. 

-You asked... 

-And you answered!

We talked nonstop for almost two hours straight when just out of the blue Daniel asked me a very straightforward question.

-Teacher, would you ever stay with me?

I paused for a second before looking in his eyes and answering serioulsly:

-No student I wouldn't. Why? For many reasons...to start out you are my student and I don't stay with students - as I told you, not once in my life did I ever stay with a student. Second reason is your girlfriend. I stayed once in my life with a guy that was married and really, we didn't do a thing more than kiss and it was only once but I felt like shit after doing so and regretted it so bad you have no idea. And last but not least, I am scared that things will change and we won't have the same friendship if we do get involved with each other, you know what I mean?

-Yes I do. It makes total sense what you are saying and I agree completely with you but I can't lie to you or tell you that I just don't have any feelings or attraction to you because I do. And I feel that you feel something similar for me too. Or is it just my head playing tricks with me?

-Does it make a difference if its true or if its just your imagination?

-For me it does because I have never liked two people at once. Since the day that I started dating my actual girlfriend I haven't thought about or even felt the slightest bit attracted to any other girl. And like, when I am with my girlfriend there in SP I forget about everything else and am happy enough just to be with her and that is more that enough for me. But then the weirdest thing is that its now the same way when I am with you. We stay here talking for hours and hours about everything and I just feel so good around you that I can't help but forget the world when I am by your side and just want to stay with you and that is very weird and confusing for me. And you know I am being completely honest with you...

-Yes, I know that Daniel but I don't want to get in the way of your relationship with Marisa despite everything that has been going on between us for the past few months...I don't know what to make out of it. I really don't.

I don't know how it happened. But it did happen. Before I even knew it or thought about it Daniel's hand was softly stroking my hair as we continued talking about the sticky situation we were in. From there his hand went to my face and soon it wasn't only his hand, but his lips brought themselves towards mine and pretty much all we had just talked about was forgotten and thrown to the wind. I don't know how long it was, but it seemed like it was only a second. In the end it must have been at least half an hour. Maybe even more. We were like furious animals, grabbing each other in a wild frenzy, legs and arms swinging in all directions, lips glued. Eyes opened and fixed on one another yet not uttering a word. Our eyes said it all. Halfway I tried to pull away, tried to break loose and stop it all but it didn't last for longer than a second before he pulled me back and we started all over again.

No, we did not have sex but yes, things got pretty hot for a moment or two. And then as soon as it started it was done. We both just stopped and he looked in my eyes, searching them deeply while I returned his gaze. He then got up and walked over to the bathroom. I sat upstraight, fixed my hair and sat down at the kitchen table. As he came out of the bathroom he made his way to the kitchen where he sat across me. 

- I am already feeling terrible teacher. About what I did just now, betraying my girlfriend and all. But I just can't resist you.

I just nodded my head.

-From today on we have to have classes only here on the kitchen table and not go any further from just having classes. We can't have anything else. I feel terrible for having betrayed my girlfriend.

-I agree with you completely. I didn't mean to do what I just did there.

-Well, you did it anyways.

-Hey, I tried to stop it and you were the one that started it all, okay?!
-Don't tell me you didn't want it or else you wouldn't have gone along with it. And just becasue I started it doesn't mean anything. You could have stopped it if you really wanted to but you didn't!
-Hey, who do you think I am? Miss Iron Woman?! I have been trying and you know I have always stopped everything that might have turned into something every time we have class and see each other,  but one day you just can't hold yourself anymore. Sorry. So don't you go putting the blame on me. You are just as much to blame now!!!

-I am the man. Who told you to be so hot and tempting? And for me to feel the way I feel, humm? I counted on your strength for us not to do anything and this is why I get angry at you because you should have been stronger.

-I am not hearing this. I did try to stop but you didn't let me. And know what? What is done is done! Its no use to stay bemoaning over it. I got to go. I don't want to arrive home too late. 
I picked up my bag trying to hold the anger that was about to explode anytime. How dare he put the blame all on me just to try to get rid of his guilt?!!! 
-From now on we can only have class, nothing else.

-Fine! That's all it was ever supposed to be anyways. 
We turned around to face each other as I made my way out the door and the angry feelings suddenly disappeared when I saw the look of confusion in his eyes. I didn't know what to make out of it. I didn't know how to react. I didn't know what to say that could make it better - or if there even was anything that could make him feel better. We hugged each other and I pulled myself away before something else could happen.
-Bye student. 
-Bye teacher. 

This is not the end of the story but I still need to stop here. Finish later. 


Disclaimer: ALL NAMES ARE FICTITIOUS - dates, places and events are FACTS!!!